Something a friend said has given me cause to think long and hard about my illness and how it has affected me physically and mentally over the 14 years since it started.
Listing my symptoms has highlighted that there is no area of me that is not affected some way or another. Taking a simplistic view this tends to suggest there is an overall cause of all this, though no researcher has come close to explaining all this disease's vagaries. It seems like our whole hard wiring system is out of kilter. I described the overall feeling as being like a faulty wiring system, it's there but it doesn't work. If it does work, not all of it works at the same time. We never know which bit is going to play up next and we certainly don't ever know when.
At least I will never get bored.
Listing my symptoms has highlighted that there is no area of me that is not affected some way or another. Taking a simplistic view this tends to suggest there is an overall cause of all this, though no researcher has come close to explaining all this disease's vagaries. It seems like our whole hard wiring system is out of kilter. I described the overall feeling as being like a faulty wiring system, it's there but it doesn't work. If it does work, not all of it works at the same time. We never know which bit is going to play up next and we certainly don't ever know when.
At least I will never get bored.
2 comments:
Thats how i feel too, and a good way to describe it. i feel like my body's shut down.
It's weird isn't it?? I'm not as shut down as I used to be and I think my RA meds must take some credit for this, but I sure wish everything would work properly at the same time for once!!
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